"But our silence was a concern.."

This is brand new. I'm very fond of it. It's in my usual disjointed, verses seemingly barely connected style. The verses are of course very much connected, but per usual, only I know how. If you can guess where the title came from, you win a prize. Really, it shouldn't be that hard..

“damned damned damned”

a shot of heartache hit me like the sun

it broke up the monotony

 i had been happy for a while

it reminded me to shake my fist at the sky

to get mad at nothing

because that’s all that matters

i make jokes behind your back

because you’re no longer around,

but your presence remains

if i missed you as much as i want to miss you

i wouldn’t be writing, i’d be crippled on the floor

i wept for your benefit, not my own

i hope for new accidents

for things to suddenly get exciting again

that small moment

 before the cracks start to appear

is the only moment i want to live in

even still, that moment might not exist

you never think about

how fragile finite things are

even after you’ve seen a few things broken

but those memories recede, just

long enough for you to hurt yourself again

but maybe if beauty didn’t end in tragedy, it wouldn’t be any fun