Two poems

I know it's been an eternity, fuck it. Here's two new poem.I don't remember where the first one came from, but at some point while I was writing the second I started thinking about an obscure (is there any other kind) Vic Chesnutt song, "Backsliding Deist's Prayer" and I found a direction. I think these were both written in August, and they're pretty goddamn depressing. Summer brings out the worst in me.

“backsliding atheist’s prayer”

it is always dusk

wherever it is i come from

the shops open and close and

nothing changes, not a dimmer or brighter light

the sun hurts my eyes

the dark scares me sober

i’m never safe

but i can’t return home

my sentence was stiffly read

i couldn’t choke up an alibi

i’ll take the flames, or i’ll take the ice

but i’ll never take back my word

the knowledge is the hardest part

it’s difficult to be afraid when there’s nothing to fear

but i’m backsliding again

 and there isn’a thing to hear my prayer

“another one for the lovers”

i reached to hug her, she snuck a kiss, i didn’t mind

as i closed her car door i looked back

i returned her smile, that was the last time i saw her

disaster is a slippery thing, it always surprises

most love affairs never get started

they present themselves like puffs of smoke

if it gets into your lungs

you hold it like a crack hit, never wanting down

everything ends, whether in sprit, or in deed

some are luckier than others in this regard

some enjoy the eternal suffering, some go after it like badminton

we all end in the same place, we might as well enjoy it how we can

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